So good to see an artist I’ve worked with continue to do really, really good things. Love this. And he’ll be on tour with Manchester Orchestra soon. Yay, Chris!
There’s are a lot of people out there who write about their expertise. That’s great for them. There’s some value to that in terms of building an audience and creating a personal brand. Some people really like to be told what to do and for those people, people who write telling other people what to do is great.
I happen to be far more interested in the questions. The people in my life that know me know that I’m very opinionated but that if there’s anything I know it’s that I don’t know. (Did you follow that?) Maybe that’s my personal brand. Jocelyn Aucoin, “She knows but she doesn’t know”. I’m really fine with that. I mean, try to keep up with my Twitter bio. It changes almost daily because, for real guys, Who am I? What do I know? No clue. No idea.
This love of questions and fearlessness when it comes to the unknown has lead me into opportunities that others would shy away from. I’ve moved to states where I didn’t have a job and didn’t know anyone more than once because why not? Risk is not really a word I understand. I’ve been known in the past to tell people about things I’m involved with and had them look me straight in the eye and say, “Good luck with that!” or worse. Really.
But I love a challenge. What can I say? Writing for me, then, among other things, becomes an avenue to explore my questions. It’s not about sharing my expertise (although sometimes I have to lay the smack down when it comes to human kindness because people can be so mean). What I want to do is open up a conversation, talk about what I’ve come to find out so far to whomever will listen. What I hope is that an exchange will ocurr. Any exchange. I ain’t picky.
I wish there were more people out there who weren’t afraid to say “I don’t know” or even just to have an opinion that wasn’t serving some other purpose apart from the truth they felt inside. Because there are far too many people who are acting like they know and are just that - acting. But I get it. It’s scary to say you don’t know something. And we’re all under this microscope these days. None of us want to look anything but our best.
But the best we can do for ourselves and for each other is to be honest. To be really real. To say what we know and to admit when we don’t know and to be unafraid and to let go of what people will think. Because yeah, people will think things. And guess what? What they think is out of our control. And while we’re busy trying to control something we can’t, we’re missing out on the beauty and freedom of not knowing a f*cking thing. Of being caught up in something bigger than ourselves. Of truly living.
"I didn’t fail one thousand times. The lightbulb was an invention with one thousand steps."
– In article-love with Creativity Creep by Joshua Rothman from The New Yorker